If I don't fit this style of system then why I'm I still here in this still world

I mean after all I have nothing left to live for anyways theres nothing but wasted time that I wanna trade and give up

Cause I'm trapped and tried of holding this awful pain in my chest no one is there and on one cares
nothing matters anymore

No sunny days no beautiful nights no smiles no laughs
Just only the thoughs of goodbyes tonight
And yes it's sad to say that the end for me has ararrive

Im sorry I can't adapt and survive I'm strong not anymore I swear to god long time ago I shouldn't had died

But see I had a savior and that person Is no longer around
Now its just me alone walking these dark long roads now any day I just know that I could go six feet deep buried blow