I am here today because once my father forced me to enter a writing competition and i came second and he was so so so disappointed and angry in ways that you can never understand because i will tell you.
They have both forced me to do many things.
I don't want to talk about those things anymore because all i get is screaming and hurting in my eyes and i begin to sound like a child.
I am here today because people have been telling me my whole life that i am things that i am not and i have believed them.
I am here today as me and the me that i will become because once i fell out of a tree and couldn't feel my body for exactly 3 minutes and 16 seconds and in those moments i saw infinity.
And the reasons that i have cried are also the reasons that I have lived and for this I am eternally and internally grateful.
All of them were exactly who I needed for me to be me.
And sometimes I sit in the bathroom crying and sometimes in the twilight everything is so ******* unfair and i do not want them to be who they are and I do not want me to be me.
It would be easier.
And maybe they do make my insomnia worse and maybe they have ruined my smile.
But they have also forced me to teach myself things that keep me from being like the rest and they have made it possible for me to understand why people die.
So i say yes, to the people who say I needed them
I say, yes, you are right i did need them. I needed my family so i could find out that there are worse people than me
And they will never let me forget