Sanity

I want to bash my head against the wall
a hundred times over.
Why won't you speak to me?
Please still be my friend.
Don't disappear from my life.
I love you more than I will ever love myself.
I'm trying to get tangled up with strangers
to temporarily get you out of my head.

Sleep

I haven't been able to sleep through the night
without taking 2,
or 6 sleeping pills.
I keep having dreams about you..
They wake me up, and the only remedy is to swallow more pills to go back
to a world where I have you.

Blood

You always get upset when I cut myself, and
if you saw my legs right now
you would be so disappointed.
I'm so sorry.
My thigh stopped bleeding,
but I'm not sure
how much more blood
my heart
can lose