I tried to count all the times
I've ended up just like this

awake in the dark

& then I tried counting all the
times I've tried to do even that

but I lost count

I gave up
and once more I'll
rise with the sun,
soon to be wrapped
in the dark
yet again

and like countless times before
the cycle will continue

all those things I know
better than to attach
myself to, will sustain
weight on my mind

on and on it will go
until I've no desire to keep counting