the surgical procedure required to probe into your skull is way too difficult for me. how difficult is it to learn how to examine the thoughts you conjure up, like arithmetic or magic. the stem cutters to pull the dead roots out of you are dull, like the color of dead coral or fishes that don't see sunlight. maybe the fishes just don't swim to the surface too often. if i would have seen your arsenal and armory before i dedicated every inch of my pointless existence of a heart to you, every hour of my life wouldn't hold disdain and regret for you. the only difference between us and a car crash was that the shrapnel and glass was our shattered memories. the hairline fractures that are burned into my wrist's bones have turned into full blown fragments eradicated from the ligaments. i've seen fall, winter, spring, and summer meet all in the same day because of you. you are an impossible calculation, a lobotomy no pet scanner can recognize.