Hearts don't beat out of chaos
And no one's heart beats alone
You are not fighting on your own
I know there are often days
in which you struggle to evacuate the covers
and you may feel lost and abandoned
But I will still be there.
This isn't one of those "when it's convenient for me" promises
because it is always convenient for me.
I will always adore you
and support you and fight for you
I am not one of your imitation friends
that do a complete 180 the moment you pass through the door
I am not one of the girls that haunt your heart
that could not see the magnificence inside its darkened recesses.
I would never see you as a bad person
because you are the sunshine that fills the sky today
and you are the reason I continue to wake up to see it.
You destroy any evidence of unhappiness inside of me
and replace it with pure light.
You are the most beautiful of melodies.
I know for a fact that I cannot do this without you
and maybe I'll end up a boring old housewife with two kids and an SUV crossover and no bestselling books
but you and I both know that future is not set in stone.
That suburban nightmare may come to pass and even if it does
I will still love you.
I will still adore you when the clouds take over the sunshine I cling to
and I will still treasure you when I can no longer see the sky.
You are not inherently evil
You are not a bad person.
You are mine. That's all you are.
And whenever I think of you I think of happiness and sunshine and warmth
and without that
I would be broken
I need your happiness to survive
so keep that wonderful smile on your face.