People slip through my fingers like sand
I can't hold onto anyone
Because there is always someone better
Why can't I ever be the someone who is better
Why am I not worthy of the same love that the world gets
Why do the children who I used to run with
Now make me feel as if everything has been stolen from me
Why am I never picked first in gym?
Not just in gym
Why am I never picked first at 2:00 am
Why am I always available
But the people around me would rather be elsewhere
There are no exceptions to this state of being
This loneliness
The company is only temporary
Because everyone who is important in my life
Has someone more
And it's no secret
People see
People laugh when I tell them who my best friends are
Because they know I am not their's
Why am I never their's
Why am I always alone
Sitting at my house
Writing these words
That you will never know were for you
I guess this is just a one way road
And I'm the idiot driving the wrong way
You'll never truly grasp how important you are to me
But I guess thats good
It's saves me a lot of embarrassment