I'm not like you
               and it *****.
Here I am in the cluster
Where we all look the same &
We all come from the same places
                                              but we aren't.
& I'm alone here,
Making mental pictures of things that aren't
            sloppy
        fuzzy
               or colorful
In that way that makes you all smile
I don't smile, I only see
& it makes me feel alone because
                                                         ­           I know
I am

There might be others but they aren't
Me

I am completely              different

I've given up looking for someone to be like me
& bring me happiness like the
happiness you all receive
from the things that
I don't do

Here's to acceptance that happiness for me
will never be
conventional or even
                                                   real
                                                         existent
                                                                ­      cheers
[with the solo cup of water]