We get back to school and, once again, out of nowhere you come back into my life. You began to care for me in ways I've never felt cared about. So fast I don't even remember how it started, our relationship built. And as our favorite heroine Hazel Grace would say: "I fell in love the way you fall asleep..slowly then all at once"
Those next two months I experienced joy I didn't even know possible for someone like me..and mostly because of you. My heart for you exploded and I wanted to take every opportunity to treat you right. My friends thought I was going insane..accusing him of using me for selfish gain.
Its almost funny..how love can completely blind you. You see that light in someone and it distorts your vision of who they really are. I saw a light in you..a light that no one, not even yourself saw. And I had faith in that light..in you.
But there comes a point when that light gets fainter and dimmer..the veil is lifted, and that "light" is not worth fighting for anymore. I gave you so many chances to prove everyone wrong. But you showed me how easy it was to let me go, to give up. Your silence is something I may never get over.
You used me up like a piece of paper, got what you wanted out of me, crumpled me up and threw me away. And while I'm over here with a broken heart and dragging days, you're over there-completely silent and doing okay.
So just know, when I cross your mind and you decide to come back into my life..I'm not going to let you in this time.
maybe its me and my blind optimism to blame..or maybe its you and your sick need to give love and take it away