I'm scared that I won't grow up to make my parents proud I'm scared that I will never find someone that I'll be happy with and love I'm scared that I will never accomplish what I've set out to do Scared that I'll be a fake, a fraud I don't know who I am and it scares me I desperately want to fill a void in my life left by my dad I'm scared that I will never meet him again Scared that he won't want to see me Afraid of meeting him for the first time Afraid of what I might do if I do meet him What if I do the same to my son.. What kind of person would I be What kind of person do I want to be? I'm selfish, insecure, angry and afraid Afraid that my friends would leave me Afraid of being alone.. Afraid that I am not as smart as I think I am Afraid of spiders Afraid of judgment I want to be a Lawyer, but I won't be one I want to be a tree climber, but that was for jokes I want to be... I'm afraid that I will waste my potential and become a joke I don't feel accomplished in anything I quit something as soon as it gets hard I will leave you if I keep thinking about you I am too affected by my emotions **** emotions I lack a good work ethic I always take the easy way out I'm always late For class, for talks, for meetups I can never control my self I can never control you I can never feel the way I feel about you again I will not let you do this to me again I'm finished. Done. Thank you for your time, I will remember all of the nights we laughed together Your smile Your eyes Your walk I hope I will forget you But I won't Because I'm stupidly in too deep And it’s a long way up I'm lying in bed, typing. This will never reach your eyes I don't care about the others, they can go **** themselves I don't even care about you anymore This is off topic I'm not a topic I'm not even a candidate I'm just a friend who cares too much Not about you Why would I eve.. Ok fine, about you I wish Twitter did not have a 140 limit I am almost 2000 above.. Why do I do this? It’s 2 am.. This is helpful No, it isn’t **** I hide from my fears the best way I know how I don't know how... I lied I'm a lair, but a really bad one I'm a student, but a really bad one I'm a brother, but a really bad one Considering how I've never even met one of my half-sisters, and the little time I spend with the one that I do know I feel left out Abandoned I have no father I have no sister And my mom is with my sister and dad all the time I'm alone in this wonderful world I wish I had someone like you But not you I do not want you I lust for the feelings you make me feel I want that permanently But you have feelings too And I respect that I wish you the best no, **** that ******* **** this fucktyler I've been practicing meditation recently Or trying to at least I've been reading more as well About how to expand love To increase you inner circle to everyone I realized that someone like me could never do that I can never open up to anyone like the way I can open up to myself Not even you... Not .. even... you I need to stop this No more you, and definitely no more us there never was us just you and I never thought this day would come when I stopped But it did And it was about **** time One day I'm going to delete this That is the day that I become enlightened Free From you From me If anyone ever happens to read this… Talk to me