Oh, God,
I feel I’ve been lied to.
The world has flipped and I’m
Beneath it,
Trying to hold it and keep it
Steady but
Losing.
This war is scarring,
Aching,
Painful.
My eyes are weak and heavy
But sleep only makes it worse.
Where will I go when this is over?
I’ve lost everyone I love and
I’ve gained a sense of hatred
For life.
Oh, God,
Please save me from wrath
Consuming my mind,
For I can’t find the light
Alone.
I need a prayer,
I need a savior,
I need an answer that can heal
My diseased veins
And make me see the good.
The world is heavy on my back.
I can feel my bones crack
And my heart lacks
A certain decency and acceptance
For myself.
Hope slips as easily as it remains,
And I’ve none left to keep.
I am weak,
So I weep.
But tears are salty
And do no good for me.
All I taste is nothing.
Oh, God,
I hate what I’ve become.
I am coming undone.
I can’t run
From the things
I’ve done.
Lost is the only place I find
Behind closed eyes,
Deep in my mind.
Is that where I belong?
Oh, God,
Please tell me.
Is that where I belong?