it's one of those nights
when i want to smoke a pack
and drink enough to start crying
when i really don't want to talk about it
when i'm so fine
i'm not fine
i'm not fine at all
i'm at my lowest
yet tyler ******* durden would mock my definition of
"the bottom"
it's one of those nights when
i want to get deeper
because
only when you reach the bottom
you can rest
you can even make it comfy
it won't possibly get worse, so
why go for making it the best?
that, you can't have
cause life is a *****
and we are imperfect and
we are god's unwanted children
and other horribly amazing quotes
it's one of those nights when
i want to jump in front of the last train
and become an awful, fascinating piece of art
but that wouldn't be reaching the bottom
that would be avoiding it
and i'm a tough guy, all right?
all right?????
it's one of those nights
when nothing seems right or real
when i blink really fast and
when i'm not sure this is the proper way to breathe
when i miss everyone; when
i miss even you
and i hate you in my guts because
YOU ARE THE REASON I'M THIS WAY
YOU YOU YOU YOU YOU
YOU *******
it's one of those nights when i wish you were here
when i wish you'd still pretend i was important
you'd help my heart function properly
(you stole it you burned it you killed it you monster)
it's one of those nights
but you have her now
and i have no one
and i want to smoke a pack
and drink until i cry
and cut until i die