The stars shine so bright in the sky as I sit shivering on this chilly night I look for an answer to my prayers throughout the heaven's mysterious light. My mind starts to wonder as I search among the stars I begin to hear music, angelic guitars. The clouds start swaying as if they were dancing to the sounds of the universe the trees reaching out to heaven as if to shake hands and converse. I feel like I am floating I am reaching towards the sky I really want to go with them but, I haven't said good-bye. I slowly come back to consciousness, I couldn't leave just yet I have unfinished business I must tend to, as I awake in a cold sweat. There's a touch, so soft and gentle on my face I open my eyes to see I am in a strange place. My children standing over me with tears upon their cheeks turns out I was in the hospital, had been there several weeks. I had tried to take my life one night they explained in utter pain apparently I was upset so bad I literally went insane. Guilt it is a funny thing it can eat your heart and soul I didn't want to hurt them, just to end the suffering was my goal. I am back at home now, I am getting better everyday I just couldn't leave my family, so I made up my mind to stay. Sometimes, I still stare at the sky, and imagine how it'd be to hold and kiss my long lost ones and reunite our family tree.