Get out of my ******* head

I don't want to look for you down every walkway,
every sidewalk, every school hall, every classroom
I don't want to wish to see your smile next to mine
or hope that one day you'll crash your lips to mine
or desire your hand trailing up and down my side
while we lay in our bed just existing with each other

I don't want to mistake strangers for you.
I don't want to write about you anymore.
I don't want to see you in everyone I love.

I want to forget the way your smile
infected everyone else's in the room

I wanna forget the sound of your
****** laugh that rang out from
your ******* lungs when your
friends told a stupid joke

I wanna forget the contour of your face
how your teeth grazed your bottom lip when you were deep in thought
how your eyes crinkled when you were trying so hard not to laugh

I hate that i've memorized your face
down to the freckle splashed on your cheeks
and that I can recall your scent with so little effort
and how your lips danced whenever you called my name

I want you out of my ******* mind
I want your memory gone
Just like you are.