I used to write down all my secrets And put them in envelopes I addressed them to "The person who keeps everyone's secrets, Please hold on to some of mine Because I'm crushing under the weight that they hold" But because I never met anyone like that I just stuffed them away in my underwear drawer, My sock drawer, My supplies drawer, My junk drawer, But eventually I had so many secrets I ran out of evelopes and ran out of places to hide them.
You kissed me the same day you told her you loved her You held my hand when no one was looking Yet you held her entire body as if you were the pedastool And she was an idol Her flawless skin A reminder that I will never be Flawless enough for you to want only me
It wasn't until all my secrets came flowing out Cluttering my heart That I realised I'm your only secret Do I keep you up at night They way you haunt my dreams Afraid to fall asleep For fear if I hear you say my name again Ill fall even harder than before. I doubt it... Ive been here enough times to know that I'm just another girl who's heart you keep in a jar on your night stand Along with the rest of your collection Yet I don't feel the need to self harm because these words are already sharp enough to cut me open People always told me to fight for the ones that I love And baby id fight for you But there's no point in it if the competition has already won
My heart became the battle field ***** and bruised So here I am Admitting defeated You may have destroyed my dignity But I have won my respect Im as fierce as a lioness And I don't need to be tamed I won't jump through anymore fiery hoops Just in hope that one day you'll love me in return I'm not gonna be another welcome mat on your front porch Because you're not welcome to walk all over me You're not welcome to leave behind the ***** particles of your ****** life and expect me to clean it up You're not welcome to wear me down and then replace me with someone new Because eventually i'll get used to sleeping alone I'll manage to stay out of the coldest corners While still filling up the bed Every morning ill regain my strength over a cup of coffee And I'll pick up my pen I'll write about us I'll write about how we weren't a tradedy Just a season passed and a lesson learned