I don’t want to remember the way you held me After too long apart
I know that nothing is real anymore It’s all just pretending I’m pretending to be functional And you’re pretending you won’t get tired of my unintentional games
This coffee is pretending it can wipe the sleep from the back corners of my insomniac brain
In my mind’s eye I keep rereading your snapchat You have yet to open my sarcastic reply I have to be sarcastic in my replies to you
I’m afraid if I’m real You will see how you can break me Snap the last whole piece left in the cavern of my chest
I don’t want to be broken anymore
Its 2 am, I’m learning how to breathe through the pain Of being alive when everything in me rebels against it
I’m learning how to live with the sound of my heart beat In every moment, even though all I want is a bit of peace
Quiet, in the way I never want to be with you again