I remember it felt so nice the sun's rays beating upon my brow. I didn't notice the blisters forming breaking leaking the heat leeching out of my life. The color remained but the moisture was gone: all an illusion to help them assume the blood was still pumping through my veins. Soon enough the veils blew away leaving me naked, brittle, barren; halted as if I had come across my own name in the obituaries. So I stood, seeing no where that I wanted to be instead, & slowly was buried alive -- (?) -- I was on the seeing side of a one way mirror: me, motionless observant of their movement; they, completely unaware of my displacement. I was coated so well in my isolation that when they looked deeply into my eyes they thought they saw themselves. I started to believe it would always be this way. Hadn't it always been this way? Though when I felt stirrings I noted them with indifference. Rock by rock the mountain that sat on me was removed & yet I remained in place waiting for them to be replaced. I don't know when it happened but one day I noticed the flush return to my cheeks & the floods that were collecting. I am finding my voice again. It sounds so fragile & sweet. I hate it when it rings in rejoice:
For the saddest thing to me is that the flower struggles all spring to bud & blossom, ignorant to her fate of finally blooming finally becoming ripe only for Lucifer to pick to braid her into his hair before he falls.
part a: four seasons - vivaldi part b: paradise lost - john milton part me: crazy - knarls barkley