there are these moments
these moments of pure delirium
that happen as you wake from a dream
when everything around you
seems like its alien
as if its all still part of the fantasy
and you are bewildered
right up until the alarm sounds
directly in your ******* ear
and shatters the illusion
but insomnia is what happens
when you just cant sleep
you are not allowed to dream
or to have peace from the insane
quibbling of the thoughts
that have miniature wars
inside your head
this is when delirium becomes reality
when you can no longer
distinguish imagination from truth
you are a slave to a perpetual
waking nightmare from which
you cant escape
i am a zombie now
i am delirium itself
i feel like i am watching myself
like my life is some ****** sitcom on TV
and i all i want to do is change the channel
but i cant
i just wish i could fast forward
to the part where i finally
find peace