I just thought you should know that I can hear it in your voice.

The emptiness, the memories,

The thought of what-once-was.

I thought you should know that you're not fooling anyone anymore.

I thought you should know that

I know

You want to die.


I thought you should know that I don't miss you nearly as much as

I thought I did.

I thought you should know that my heart

Doesn't beat the same anymore.

I thought you should know that I gave up on love

The day you walked out.

I thought you should know that you never left my mind.


And I thought was happy the day you came back.

Again.


I thought you should know that

You attacked me like cancer.

And I hate it.

I hate that you're in my blood.

I hate that you're eating away at every inch of me.

I thought you should know that by hating you, in turn,

I've begun to hate myself.


I thought you should know that when they find me

On the bathroom floor,

You shouldn't act so surprised

When you discover it was your name

I carved into my arms.


I thought you should know you killed me first..

And I just cleaned up your mess

For the last time.