Sharp staccato steps as I made my way downstairs,
Into the white convertible I always hated.
Sailing down the streets of what is, and remembering what kind of was.
Homeliness and homelessness and
brokenness and that messy glue you use in Elementary School.
And all the parts
connected like a quilt
and the holes in it make it ours
and the cold air keeps my toes warm,
as the limbs shiver,
and the bumps rise,
I remember how you were,
and how my heart feels,
and how my hands shook,
and how now they are steady, and stiff,
and how lifelessness comes with life,
hidden under a black cloak,
but you know he’s there,
and so do I.
And that keeps us driving,
wordless as we drive off the cliff,
silent as the waterfalls take us down with them,
quite as the car bomb we built goes off,
and yet we emerge from the ash,
and breathe under the ocean roar,
as we climb back
into another convertible car
and do it again.