i have a feast full of love for you, darling that is waiting for you on the table of my heart. every time i see you, you say that you are starving. you sit there with wide eyes and shaky hands, devouring nothing. i have a feast full of love for you, darling that is waiting for you on the table of my heart but I am afraid it is slowly turning into poison for the parakeets. because thatβs what happens when you love someone you canβt have, you want to give them everything but since you cannot, it just sits there, slowly rotting, gently decomposing with heartbreak covered in flies. this hurts more than i was expecting, i was not planning for this to happen again. i am beyond furious at myself for cultivating a love that is going everywhere but inside of you, down the drain in the trash, in the bellies of a flock of geese flying in the opposite direction of where they belong. even though you said you will, deep down i know that you might never make up your mind. which means i have to make up mine regardless of if or when you actually decide to. there is a fine line between hope and heartbreak there is a fine line between love and longing. this is the part where i choose not to be stuck. this is the part where i clean up the table, do the dishes open up the cage of parakeets singing love songs inside the gazebo of my heart, and set them free. whenever you think of loss, i hope you always think of me.