hidden behind a clever disguise,
comes the truth behind the lies,
a truth so dark you cannot see,
a truth so thick you cannot breathe.
underneath the shimmering smile,
stand in the soon to know isle,
there's a deep secret no one knows,
but now it is about to be shown.
there is hate within my bones ,
so dark and deep no one knows,
its a hate of myself and only me,
tearing my skin off for no one to see.
slicing deep and stabbing hard,
my wrists inevitably scarred,
i cannot find the happiness unknown,
i am a vessel of hate for me.
i wish i knew what happiness is,
maybe there would be a way out of this,
it's all planned and ready to go,
soon i'll pull the trigger and no one will know.