there are certain things--
mostly your smile..
that i want to capture
in a jar.
use it to light up
those dark nights
where i'm up with the stars, crying.
where a rift has started
within the fibers of my being
threatening to slowly tear
myself apart.
piece by piece
i'll give away
to those i think deserve.
i'd save my heart for you.
but i'm not sure you'd want it.
it's darkened over the years,
and it's cracked
and broken
with quick fix
compromises and repairs
with faulty glue
band aids
and cheap tape.

i want to capture your smile
and use it to light up those nights
so i'll have more time
to repair my heart
for you.