You have tried calendars, and a house bedecked in post-its. I know. Try to put a collar on time, it sheds all over your furniture.
You think time is: You think life is: The sun goes down, the dew comes up.
You think time is: You think life is: Two hours with a movie. Four hours with an amusement park. Six with a car ride.
You think time is an anxious pet fed and watered who lives in the same house and sleeps in a different bed who sometimes needs to be let outside.
That is not what time is about. Time is about a rusty cabinet door that squeaks when you open it. A squeak you never noticed before. Time is about, when you have piled enough leaves enough autumns, your heart makes the sound of a spoon in a teacup, and then where do you go? Sweden?