Sometimes I want
to scream at him
to leave me alone,
although he's no where
around.
Sometimes I wish
I had never turned
to him with my problems,
and that he was there
to catch me.
Sometimes I really
wish I could just delete
him from my life,
permanently.
And not worry every day,
wondering if he's dead,
and what could have been.
I want to tell him
how much he terrifies me.
He's unstable, and
so am I.
But he is crazier
than me,
and how do you
catch the wind?
Sometimes I hate him
for coming into my
life and changing it.
Forever.