Mar 2014
I was fine till you came along.
I was fine making my way through this dark, scary, beautiful, huge forest. My brown skin made it easy for me to move around in the darkness without drawing attention to myself. I knew my way around. I knew what I was after, I knew what needed to be done.
I always avoided the road. I've seen others venture onto that road and they have all gotten hurt. Family members, friends, strangers. They all took different routes, but always ended up at the same destination.
Sometimes I'd be at the verge of the road, observing, wondering if I should make the step onto the black pit with the single dotted white line, but they were all the same. Nothing captured my attention, nothing made me brave enough to want to take that step, then you came along.
You were different. Your first impression, although you didn't know, left me in awe. The way you moved so gracefully and carefully. The way you slowed down to practically a crawl along the road like if you knew the dangers that could be done when you move too quickly.
I noticed you once, twice, then the times became countless, but every time I saw you I found one new thing I liked. Each night I'd wait for you, faithfully. One night I waited at the side of the road for you but you never came. Maybe that was a sign.
After weeks of waiting I eventually gave up. The road slowly became lonely to the point of desertion.
The night I decided to cross the road with hopes of reaching safely to the other side was the night you returned.
There I was, in the middle of the road and you came faster than before with your headlights brighter than ever.
I froze. I couldn't move. I was a deer in your headlights, your love shining on me.
The warmth of your light, your love, was comfortable in the midst of the brisk cold night. The brightest light I have ever seen venturing on this road, and I was captivated by it, by you.
Then your light started to fade, and the darkness got darker till there was no more light. Finally, I could move again, no more light blinding my way, but now I feel helpless, because within those few moments together, your light brightened up my life making me notice the beauty hidden within the darkness.
As I walked along the path that I've started and you continue yours, I only hope that maybe one night, when I'm ready to venture onto the road again I'd be the deer in your headlights.
I was fine making my way through this dark, scary, beautiful, huge forest. My brown skin made it easy for me to move around in the darkness without drawing attention to myself. I knew my way around. I knew what I was after, I knew what needed to be done.
I always avoided the road. I've seen others venture onto that road and they have all gotten hurt. Family members, friends, strangers. They all took different routes, but always ended up at the same destination.
Sometimes I'd be at the verge of the road, observing, wondering if I should make the step onto the black pit with the single dotted white line, but they were all the same. Nothing captured my attention, nothing made me brave enough to want to take that step, then you came along.
You were different. Your first impression, although you didn't know, left me in awe. The way you moved so gracefully and carefully. The way you slowed down to practically a crawl along the road like if you knew the dangers that could be done when you move too quickly.
I noticed you once, twice, then the times became countless, but every time I saw you I found one new thing I liked. Each night I'd wait for you, faithfully. One night I waited at the side of the road for you but you never came. Maybe that was a sign.
After weeks of waiting I eventually gave up. The road slowly became lonely to the point of desertion.
The night I decided to cross the road with hopes of reaching safely to the other side was the night you returned.
There I was, in the middle of the road and you came faster than before with your headlights brighter than ever.
I froze. I couldn't move. I was a deer in your headlights, your love shining on me.
The warmth of your light, your love, was comfortable in the midst of the brisk cold night. The brightest light I have ever seen venturing on this road, and I was captivated by it, by you.
Then your light started to fade, and the darkness got darker till there was no more light. Finally, I could move again, no more light blinding my way, but now I feel helpless, because within those few moments together, your light brightened up my life making me notice the beauty hidden within the darkness.
As I walked along the path that I've started and you continue yours, I only hope that maybe one night, when I'm ready to venture onto the road again I'd be the deer in your headlights.
