is it weird to want to stay bad?
and not being saved from my own ocean of depression

is it bad to not look for God?
because you think you're a sinner and you're ashamed?

am i a terrible living creature?
who says otherwise, doesn't truly knows me
for i am a terrible living creature
that deserves nothing more than suffocation and anguish

for every time i try to atone,
for every time i try to convalesce,
it all comes back down to where i last found myself
deep under my own ocean of depression

nobody tried to save me
for they thought it was a phase

they did not believe that i was ill
for i looked dead okay
but were the signs not clear enough?