When we act out
We just want to be noticed
Saying, "Hey look, I made a snowman."
Or
"Hey look, I made a sand castle."

But like the little kid that she was
She never got attention

She was always ignored

So she gave up

Her family never loved her
They always said, "We love you honey, but we're busy right now."

Parents off to work
Youngest child
Home
Alone
Bored

No friends

Just me
Alone

Walking in a rich house
But
It *****

Emptiness soon filled the void
And the hollow formed

Being alone
With your hollow
Is scary

It makes you
Look for release
A steel kind

But not against the skin
No
That is a sin

But I did it anyway

And then
I thought of suicide

I cried out
But nobody took me seriously
So I stopped talking about it
And decided, "I won't even say I'm gonna **** myself, I'll just smile and say, I'm fine."

But when you are lonely
You go crazy

Because you're trapped in the same blood cell
And the knife is you're key out

You see
The reason people go crazy
Is because you lock them out
And hold them downn
And force them to do what you want them to do

Don't take this the wrong way
But Imm not free yet

I'm still. hollow

So I guess what I'm saying is Imm scared
Because I'm alone
I get really sad
I know you want me to be happy
But I feel sick again

I won't go on another rampage of poetfreak
But that's how I feel right now
I'm feeliing sick again

I'm not gonna post hate
But I'm just gonna cry it out

Because I know I hurt
And I can feel
Some people
Just won't let me be

Maybe they don't care about me
But I'm feeling quiiet right now
And I'm whining
I'm being a big baby

And I am trapped

How does one accept death?

I'm not gonna write here anymore
Because my heart is hollowed out
Lije a watermelon

I'm not gonna ignore people
I'm just gonna start writing in my diary again
I have personal thoughts
I can't share here


I just wish for this one wish
But it never comes true

*sighs