Tell me I don't ******* matter to you because I need to hear it. Tell me I never meant anything to you. It was a cheap lie I bought from all the people from your time.

I want to ******* hear those words slither from your throat so I won't feel like its wrong anymore. That this hatred is justified. I never thought anyone would love me again.

I never thought of be whole again. And I'm not. And I won't. Because you stole something from me, years ago. My innocence. You stained me black and red with your putrid, filthy mind. I was kind. I gave a ****.

Now all I feel is hate. And anger. I never wanted to be like this. I never wanted to feel like this. But look at me now. I'm just as awful as you.

Aren't I.