this is a reason
why sleeping is better
or doing something mindless
is better.
because any given moment
of too much time on my hands
i'm going to think
and thinking grows ugly quickly.
the mind has a way
to let on to ideas you usually
don't want to think about
and in the next moment
you could be thinking of how to die,
rather than what you'll be doing
in three years.
the mind has a way
to block out the future
and think you won't survive.