He is beautiful, wrapped in alabaster skin— a satin present enfolded in white, and lined with black; sooty lashes brush against my fingertips, papery skin pressed flat against my palms, like a cut out doll. His breath wreaths the air, suffocating my lungs, and I can’t take it anymore, but I don’t step away. He is beautiful, wrapped in alabaster skin, a perfect gift that I have stained with my impurity.