Is like i am nowhere. like i cant feel when im about to say what i need to. like words wont come out even thoe they are in the tip of my tongue. like i forget about myself and try to say what would you like to heard and im getting tired of this, im getting tired of being stock i just want to express all of this that is pounding in my chest, that takes away my breath, who is driving me crazy and making me lazy. I want to be, what im suppossed to be. and is happy.. right?