Her black skin so ivory But don't you dare call it white Ignoring the hardships faced by her ancestors The many years of plight Settled in finally made a home of this body Sometimes homes are abandoned messy She destroys her home from the inside Leaving the outside a perfect image The american dream picket fence white, white teeth Eyes hazel flecks of emerald A gemini girl with 2 sides One that she allows the world to see The other she keeps hidden only for her inner eyes She doesnt believe in God But doesnt quite believe in herself either Walking this world so alone Meaningless conversations with friends that could never understand The damage to the soul that she carries Not much but a sliver of a soul left That must be protected Tired so tired she's just been neglecting it If inside every curl was a story Her head would be rich with novels of pain Constant struggle between wanting to blend in and be seen Blending in is dangerous Being seen also What if what they see disappoints What if what they see helps me to find a turning point Until then she is waiting to be seen Look into my eyes and see the pain Look at this smile see that its fake See the teeth rotting from the acid that is lies escaping her lips Too much pride to confess Not yet ready to undress Who. She. Is.