i kept all my emotions from today contained inside of me
not like a cage made of glass, but like a cage made out of thick dense walls
hiding everything behind them
and as i realized that the last straw was broken, that i couldn’t take anything anymore
i wasn’t breathing
maybe i wanted to become the walls i was making myself out to be.
and i ****** a large amount of air into my burning lungs
ironically i wanted to do just the opposite
and with my exhale poured out all of my emotions
the wretched sobs and the yearning, the nostalgia and the pain, the sudden realization that i was
really
really
******.