Can I be frank with you?
I have a lot that goes through my mind when we're not together,
Things that I'm going through,
Things that are bugging me about where we are,
Things that I just really want to day, but I don't know how.

I want to tell you that it's time to grow up and commit,
All these excuses you give me about not wanting to be tied down,
And not wanting a girlfriend in college,
That's *******.
We talk everyday,
You randomly text me with your thoughts,
And you tell me you think about me constantly.
That sounds like a girlfriend to me.
No, what you really mean about not wanting a relationship is that you don't want to tell people about us,
And you know what people I mean.

Eventually you need to grow up and be a man,
Tell people that you're with me and it's none of their business that we are together,
It's OUR relationship, not anyone else's.

I want to tell you that you can't trust your so-called "best friend" because she's manipulating you,
It's obvious to the entire world that she's obsessed with you,
Well, everyone except for you.
I've seen her try to sabotage your friendships with any other girls who get close to you,
She's even told me that she's tried to,
She wants you for herself and will go after anyone who she thinks may get in her way,
Even one of her so-called best friends,
Why do you think she and I aren't friends anymore?
She tried to manipulate me and I saw right through it,
So I removed the poison from my life,
I wish you would do the same,
I think you would be better off,
Of course, I can't tell you that,
Because if I did, I would sound like the crazy one.

I want to tell you these things,
And so much more,
And it's not that I feel I can't be honest with you,
It's just that every time we're together, these things no longer seem to matter,
They seem minuscule… unimportant,
And in the moment, I would rather just have you.
So I push my feelings aside,
And don't bring them up,
But I wonder…
Is that maturity?
Or is that just me being too afraid of loosing you to tell you the truth?
I wonder...