I was once beautiful
I was once free
Then you came
And took that from me

You said you loved me
And I was believer
Turns out I didn't see
That you were a deceiver

But the problem lies
That I've fallen for you
And I cannot deny
How I wish you loved me too

So now I am broken and lost
Running after you asking why
You turned this heart to frost
And just walked by

Me everyday, every moment
Joking with me as if I am meaningless
Keeping yourself on check--but you are no sant

–And I am not innocent–

Though the more and more I run
To convince you that it is not about the love--lack--but about why you did what you did to me knowingly that I will take it as you loved me
The more I seem desperate
The more I seem crazy
The more I lose my colors
The more I betray myself

And the less I seem like myself the
More you distance yourself from me
All because I want to know why
That merely makes my pain greater
Makes me despise myself more
For not being able to let it go.

I wonder why I do this
Why I try
But I am not like you
I cannot lie

So I love you
And you know
And I shame you
For hurting me so
And I forgive you
For leading me to this state
But I won't recover--don't ask me--it is too late.

Because:

I was once beautiful
I was once free
Then you came
And took all that from me.