9 years today.
Seems like it's been a lot longer honestly.
Feels like a lifetime.
I really hope I've made you proud.
...
Though I'm guessing I haven't.
I'm a bit of a failure now'a'days.
I think it's hard for mom to love me sometimes.
This year's been really hard.
Because she fought cancer, just like you.
But she won.
Now I know how much it took from you.
And I feel selfish, for feeling this weak.
But man if you were here,
I think it'd be easier
Because even thought I'm a failure
I know you'd still love me
And I could really use that right now
To hear you say it
But we don't always get what we want
Otherwise,
You'd still be here.