9 years today.

Seems like it's been a lot longer honestly.

Feels like a lifetime.

I really hope I've made you proud.

...

Though I'm guessing I haven't.

I'm a bit of a failure now'a'days.

I think it's hard for mom to love me sometimes.

This year's been really hard.

Because she fought cancer, just like you.

But she won.

Now I know how much it took from you.

And I feel selfish, for feeling this weak.

But man if you were here,

I think it'd be easier

Because even thought I'm a failure

I know you'd still love me

And I could really use that right now

To hear you say it

But we don't always get what we want

Otherwise,

You'd still be here.