for some sad sorry **** reason
I can't get over the pain I feel
it overwhelms me
more than most things
and I could live
five lifetimes
and twenty three tragedies
break new ground
infinite amount of times.
I could go from the brink
of crazy as **** and back
But still never be used
to the pain I feel.
Some people say physical pain
is worse to bare than mental pain
and on most days
when my stomach is tight
and i'm curled into a fettle
position clawing onto whatever
chance of peacefulness i have left,
I would agree.
But other days,
I clutch a pillow to my chest
and stuff my face into it
wishing I would lose my breath
and leave this hell hole
that is my way of thinking
and break free from the chains
that confine my ability to be happy.
But the best **** comes from the worst ****,
which is why I write this
and constantly have internal conflicts.
is mentality worse than fatality?
or is it all so ******* tragic
that we need to stop comparing
two forms of pain that
dont even ******* coincide.

I don't know about you,
but i'm ******* tired of fighting-
especially when it's a battle
I know I'll never win.
They have pills to take away the pain,
and pills to numb your brain
but what people can't comprehend is
it's all the ******* same.