I hit refresh on my computer
to check if you had posted anything
nothing
i wonder if you actually care anymore
if you think about me
like i think about you
if every time you do your mind splits in pain
with the thought of your hair blowing in the wind
your eyes
that you always said were gray
your small, insignificant fingers that could send electrical pulses through my body
like lightning strikes
i wonder

if you know im still here