Sit me here again. Bewildered by the blinking screen That beats with my impatience. Haunted by memories That once stirred my soul Into crazed longing.
Sit me here again. Beholden to a disastrous mind Which fills cracks With insatiable glue.
Yet again what if Rattles in my chest Reminds my humbled heart That this This has stakes And longevity.
And yet sit me here again Tortured by the unwavering Possibility Of disappearing With quick flicks of stubborn tongues. It’s chance With 8,000 miles more Of unbridled yearning.
I hate that Prolonged responses Fills me with Burning cuts Of heartache That my craziness Once again reveals its eager head
I don’t need reassurance of love I hold that, dear, Too dear Dear enough to break me Into little shattered pieces of repeated fears
But I don’t know If my armor stands strong enough To not concave to Piercing blades Of loneliness Of gashes That ripped my bloated heart. This hole of desire Burns right through my skin Out my sunken eyes Painting my mouth red Chewing the same edge Of a trembling lip
So sit me here again. Refuting strikes Of persistent longing. I can’t I mustn’t. How do I explain It kills me. It slowly eats away at my will Making scars in deep cavities That rarely pumps enough blood To suffice life But pounds on haphazardly Since laying eyes on you.