Sometimes I want to tell you to stop talking to me.  Forget about the past.
Forget what we were and what we said to each other.
Forget all of what happened between us mostly because I don't think I'm good enough.
I don't think that I'm capable of being what you want in a girl.
It hurts me and it kills me to know that you had way better girlfriends,
even when you tell me that you've never met a girl like me.
Every guy tells me that.
I never believed them.
I never have, never will.
I don't know why you still talk to me.
I don't know how you do it sometimes.
We have horrible fights.
Sometimes I just want to cry my eyes out like now. Sometimes I want to slap you to help you realize that I'm not the right one for you.
I hate when we fight, it's the worst feeling ever.
My soul dies,
my heart just breaks,
my eyes get watery,
tears start to fall,
maybe too many,
my nose gets runny and I get scared.
I don't know what to do anymore but hopefully a  change will come and it will be a good change.
I will finally love myself but maybe not.
Maybe you'll love me enough for the both of us.
But... I love you.