I have become one who writes for her audience That doesn't know that I'm writing to them Making declarations on here Because in real life, I cannot scream these things out
I hate being constricted, being expected to be stable All the time I have days where I feel great and days where I am terrible And those days in between Just like everyone else Days where I go through all the steps of grief at once And days where I simply skip to the final step
But why do I feel the need to explain myself to you people? When most of you don't even know me
Some of my poems don't give away who I really am They are sort of somber and unhappy However, I am actually happy Joyous even Despite various things that have happened throughout my life I always make the best of it
I feel like I forget that sometimes though My persevering nature My optimistic outlook on life And I forget that I need to remember that I am special, too We all need to remember that we are worth something So we don't slip in to the fallacy that we are nothing
I'll be the first one to admit I have weird things about me Like how I like bottles in the car cup holder Always straight, never leaning. Or else I have to fix them How I systematically eat my diner breakfasts Scrambled eggs first, one piece of toast, then intermingled bites of home fries and the remaining slice of toast Or how I like to climb the stairs in the school hallway All of the stairs to the middle platform before the door makes the closed noise behind me
I feel like there are people everywhere like me People with quirks People who are easily excitable People who love being with their friends People you could find something in common with People who can be a lot like you But people you probably never took the time to understand
For that one who never took the time to understand who I really am