at this point
it has come to my attention
that the one thing I wish I could control,
my body rejects and comes to
a sudden halt.
if there was one thing
I wish I could stop
it would be letting your poison
trickle through my veins
and captivate my mind
like it was the only thing
it knew how to do.
although I am to blame,
I myself have no control over
the things my heart and soul are carving
into my naïve and gullible brain.
Ive learned to live
with the hurt and unsettled wishes.
shattered dreams and scattered thoughts
due to you and your once living heart.
now you're nothing but a devil,
satanic to my life.
but I will keep running back to you
and your troubled self
and that's the fault in me
that I will never forget.