On a sleepless night, I decided to write
I sat on my chair with a pen on my hand
Then suddenly, she caught my eye
A maiden whose face isn't unfamiliar.

There she was, standing by me
Staring at me with eyes emotionless
No words were spoken, tension filled the room
I knew I had to break this silence.

"Why are you here?" I asked the woman
She didn't speak but sang a song
Her voice as beautiful as the angels' singing
I felt so warm just by hearing her lullaby.

Though her face looked nothing but lovely
Her coldness pierced right through my body
I couldn't help but feel afraid
I don't want to be hurt by this illusion.

"I know that you don't really exist!"
I spoke these words though unsure if they're true
'Cuz of not wanting to burst into tears
I had shut my eyes, placed my palms on my face.

"Please, no... I don't want this anymore.
Will you just go?... leave and close the door."
My eyes shut tight, I could still see her face
A little bit hazy, but it still had stayed.

"Go away! I don't want to see you anymore!"
These words I've spoken, were true, yet lies
"Your presence hurts me even more,
I do not want to feel you anymore!"

As I tried to make her go
A thought then came into my mind
"If she actually left, wouldn't I feel lonely?"
But then she was something so unreal.

I then remembered, memories from the past
The time when I could still feel her warmth
It didn't make me feel afraid nor hurt
Just pure happiness, though it ended quickly.

I miss her hugs, the warmth of her smile
Her eyes so bright, even under the summer sky
But I know that I can't do anything anymore
I can't bring it back to the way it was before.

"Will you please just leave me alone?"
I said desperately to the woman beside me
"My dearest who have already passed,
Leave me be... don't haunt me anymore..."