at about 2 in the morning i relapsed
it's been about a month or so
but tonight i felt the weight of the world on my shoulders again
and again too weak, i let it take over me

it hurts like it always does and then it's gone
just wash it off
and i crawl back into bed and bury myself under a fort of pillows
and i just cry and hope
that in the morning when i wake my eyes won't be puffy, swollen and red