I hate waking up in the middle of the night.

I’m no longer tired, I just lay there in bed.

And all the while there’s a constant fight,

one that takes place in my head.

I’m torn between feeling everything, and having no emotion whatsoever.

And all through the evening, this battle I have to whether.

Only one thing is for sure, only one that I know.

All my feelings for her, hit me with their hardest blow.

For no matter what happens, my love for her will always be present.

If only I could go back and change my actions, them maybe I wouldn’t feel this torment.

I will always love you, no matter where we are.

If only you knew, how I wish you weren’t so far.


-m.j.