And tonight I saw you for the first time since that day.

You were gorgeous as ever, sitting there across the room.

I wanted to go up and talk to you, but I had no idea what to say.

But that you don’t want to talk to me was all I could assume.

It was hard to see you there and not keep my eyes stuck on you.

That you are the most beautiful girl I have ever met is still something I believe to be true.

It is hard knowing that all that I feel, you feel none of it.

While you were sitting there, I could tell I did not cross your mind.

Knowing that really made me feel like ****,

and it made me remember what you left behind.

Suddenly, all the memories we shared came back to me,

of how I used to be your ‘dead sea.’

You said that I saved your life.

What you do not know is that having you prevented me from ending mine.

There were so many times you prevented me from turning to the knife

and for that I will thank you until the end of time.

The only problem is that you made me fall for you hard,

and the day you left will always leave me scarred.


-m.j.