Why do I do this to myself ?
I eat myself alive
It is all just a fantasy
How will I ever survive ?

If you could only see inside my brain
It can be a sad and scary place
You ask how you can help
Like helping me is a race
And whoever helps the most
Finishes in first place ...

I just wish everyone would understand
That sometimes people break
And sometimes I just need love
But I get what I can take

But the sad thing about reality is
We take what we think we deserve
We settle for the bad stuff
Which is completely obscured

People ask me why I do it
Ruin myself inside
I just can't come to fix myself
Believe me I have tried
You think I'm happy but you haven't seen
The hours in which I've cried
I thought we could do this hand in hand
With you right by my side
But I just can't stay awake my dear
Believe me I have tried
How much longer can I do this
My heart is truly fried
I will try and stay with you my dear
It's getting hard but just remember ...
I tried