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Mar 2014
I never prayed so hard for my heart to be mended by the woman of my dreams but no matter how hard i try to fix things i just mess them up. why must this "god" mess with my heart like it is? Im a good person i do stupid **** and im fixing my life so she will come back to me but no matter what i do i just mess everything up. This year alone i have prayed more than i have my whole life and every time its like he or she or what ever heard them just likes messing up my life. i get the prayers answered then once im happy its just stops. im so ****** at this force that i think this ****** world is just here to make me miserable to the point of self death. ive never thought of suicide but its popped up a lot lately. and its getting to the point of i am about to listen to it and just go for it. i mean what do i have to loose? Im nothing in this hell hole except a tool for a higher being to mess with like a **** lab rat. ive just about had it with the torment im close to just giving jnto the voices telling me to just end it flr good.. i am nit the person i want or ment to be im just a loveless nobody. my friends are all out casts and i am their leader because i thought none of them were able to take on the role but even i am wrong as i always am. my family says im not an outsider or ann outcast but to me i say and know different. i worry about this woman who completes my life because shes had a hard life and i want to be there for her to protect her for ever so she can finally take a break and be worry free but no matter how hard i ry to be there to give her everything she needs and deserves i just mess it all up. ill be dead soon by stress so talk to me while you can.
Just sick of being heart broken and all the torture im going through.
Alpha Wolf
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Alpha Wolf  Goshen ohio
(Goshen ohio)   
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