This mess of a head ache is never ending. nothing i liked before intrests me. video games are a bore, sleep makes my have nightmares, love ripps at my skin from inside, thoughts try to flood my mind, some certain thoughts make me sick but i just cant erase them. i just want to go back and fix my mistakes but i just cant. the woman i love loves me but while we were apart i messed up and she got with another and she loves him too i dont want to and cant bare to loose her again it will be soul shattering and heart aching. i just bpbipmn mngwant to be the man i should have been but the way its going it sounds like shes thinking about getting back with him but i dont know her anymore. she used to be easy to read but anymore i can only tell when shes lieing. im just in a ****** sea of confusion and mixed up e pmotions. i dont want to loose her cause if i do my life will be short and pointless.